I love this season. Probably like any other ... Each one of them brings some changes to our daily rhythm and I truly appreciate it. Days are longer but still a little bit chilly in the morning and in the evening. We had a fun spring break in April and beautiful Easter right after. We are spending our days playing outside and pampering our front and backyard . Life is good ...
The other day I bought way too many mangos. They were 79c per pound! That's a steal...! When I got home I quickly decided that I will turn them into sorbet. It is my favorite! Especially when it's really warm outside. Eating it today made me think of warm spring days. Can't wait!
1/2 cup honey
1/2 cup water
1. Cubed your mangos.
2. Freeze them overnight.
3.Blend mango cubes with honey and water. Leave it in the freezer until ready to eat.
I am very much in love with a Bob Moses' latest album 'Days Gone By'. Not just this one song over here but the whole thing. I like to dance to it while I'm coking in the kitchen and I enjoy it when I'm driving on the sunny winter days. Give it a listen!
Raising three biracial children was never a plan for me. I never expected to one day marry an African American man and start a family with him. But as simple and silly as it sounds'love doesn't choose'... Our family is beautiful and as the years pass by, I learn how to navigate the subject of race in my home, at my kids school and in our community.
I still remember how excited we were when Barack Obama became the president. It was during that year that we had our first child. It brought us comfort and hope that our world was somehow moving forward. How wonderful was the thought that my children will be growing up with a president who has the same skin color as them. It only meant that they could look at him and think 'I can be whoever I want to be ... no matter of my race '. 8 years later and our country's executive branch changed. More than ever I worry about my husband's and children's well being and our future. The conversations about race, what to expect from people and how to react when they're 'not nice' are becoming more frequent in our home. Lucky enough we live in a big, diverse city and I can only hope for kindness from other people. But this doesn't change the fact that as a white parent I need to speak up about racism, white privilege and other race related topics because I'm left with the question of what could happen if I didn't talk about it?
I understand and know from the experience that those conversations aren't easy and comfortable. Most people choose to take a 'colorblind' approach where they want their children grow up and not notice race, not treat anybody differently because of race and that ( even though it's sounds ideal cause we all want equal rights ) is not a right approach in my opinion because our society is not 'color blind'. Our society is very structured and categorizes based on race and if we try to pretend that it's not, then we are not addressing the issues that are right there. Children can notice differences based on race very early in their life and not talking about it may send the wrong massage. They can easily take it as something they shouldn't talk about. Maybe even think that there is something wrong with people of different skin color or that it's ok, that some people deserve more then others because we are simply not addressing these issues. So being silent is actually sending a message! We basically choose not to deal with this and we are leaving it up to other sources like peers and media to inform our children. And that pretty frequently is very biased. So it is very important- especially now in the current political climate- to have direct and honest conversations with your children about race in order to over come those biased messages that they are being expose to. Especially if you're a white parent! As a white person you have a privilege of not thinking about your race. You're not being constantly reminded that you're white so it's very easy to take the 'colorblind' approach, where if you're black growing up in America you're being reminded about your race very frequently. As white people we have to recognize this privilege. And if we want to move towards true equality it has to be an effort on everybody's part.....
" I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the LAPELS." Maya Angelou
I don't imagine having a better job than raising a smart, independent and outspoken women! I cannot wait to see what future has in the store for both of my daughters! Happy International Woman's Day lovely ladies! May we know them. May we be them. May we Raise them.
I have always believed that being able to get a good night sleep is a habit, even when you're a child. I think I did the best job teaching my oldest daughter how to fall asleep in her crib on her own, and how to put herself back to sleep if she woke up in the middle of the night. As a new parent at the time I really took it to heart and I really leaned on her from the very beginning to be an independent sleeper. I was also a full-time working mother and it was in our best interest to get enough sleep per night. I was pumping milk at work and dropping her off at childcare during the day. I got kind of lucky with that as I believe the daycare she was at helped reinforce a structured sleeping regimen. By the time I had my second daughter my oldest one was over 3 years old. My parents came to stay with our kids when my husband and I went back to work. The baby was 3 months old. At that age my oldest daughter was already sleeping in her own bedroom and in the crib. Nella was still in the bassinet and in our bedroom. Our sleeping situation changed - we moved to a different place - and her future bedroom was for a time being a guest room for my parents. This I think effected her sleeping habits. She became our roommate almost till she was 8 months old and she was use to having someone near her. Even if she woke up at night she could just peek through her crib and we were right there. When my parents left we moved her to her own bedroom and that's when she started to waking up. By the end of each night she would end up in bed with us. I didn't care. I knew that I had to be at work early in the morning and I simply didn't want to struggle with putting her back to sleep in her crib. Neither my husband. By the time when Nella was two she started sleeping in the same bedroom with her sister. They both wanted to share the same bedroom even though there was no need for it. This was a break through. Nella stopped traveling to our bed. Within few months from the transition Santa dropped off a bunk bed for the girls. Just like they requested. Fast forward to the September of 2015 . Nella will be 3 years old and Pola is 6. Our family is growing once again. My son Milo is born and I quit my job. I no longer have to worry about pumping milk, carrying my pump and washing all the parts. I have the comfort of nursing on demand and we didn't really introduce the bottle to my son. I was becoming a full time stay at home mom! Milo shared the bedroom with us at the beginning- just like my daughters. He slept in the bassinet but also shared the bed with us depending on the night. I am the one responsible for the school drop offs and pick ups. Breakfast, lunch and dinner preparations. Laundry, cleaning, homework, entertainment, baths an so on... In order to function and be happy I need my sleep. And if that meant my son sleeping right by my side then I would do it. What I really wanted was peaceful nights and to have enough energy for my daughters the next day. As it turn out that we didn't create a monster. No, Milo is possibly the sweetest boy ever but he really never liked his crib. He usually napped in our bed and at night he would frequently sleep with us. He has just turn 18 months and my husband suggested that we put his crib down and move him into a 'big' bed. I wasn't sure about this move. In my head I created a vision of him walking at night... To our surprise, Milo transitioned very well. He is actually excited about the new bed, sheets and the night light. I set up a little library right next to his bed knowing that he will love looking through the books before or after bed. The very first night he went to sleep without nursing and called us maybe once. It has been over a week and he takes naps in his bed and happily walks into his bedroom when you ask him to go to lay down. I believe that he really needed that little space for himself ! He is growing and changing into a little boy. It makes me sad but I am also super happy for him. It's milestone for him and a success for us as parents.
To be honest, I don't have that much advice when it goes about teaching your kids how to sleep, stay asleep, and wake up happy. But if you were to ask me what my suggestions for achieving a content and rested family are, I would give you these few tips.
- I think it is very important to have a routine. Kids love to know what comes next. Whether it is a naptime or bedtime. It should always fall around the same time and it should break into the same steps. Bath, reading books, listening to the stories, nursing etc.
- I think it is the easiest to teach your kids how to sleep on their own and in their own crib when they are around 3 or 4 months. Once you skip that window it gets harder just because they are more aware of what is going on around them.
- All three of my children have loveys/ blankets. They are very important for those children who are gaining independence but still need that extra helping of security. Loveys help with separation, with fighting the scaries, and with breaking lingering emotional attachments to bottles or pacifiers.
- Install darker shades and drapes if your child wakes up very early or has trouble napping.
- Leave a dim night-light on.
- Consider using a white noise machine or fan if you live in a particularly noisy home. Children learn to sleep through routine household sounds but some places are just really loud, and some kids are really sensitive. Go ahead and block the noise from heavy traffic, rumbling trucks, nearby construction, barking dogs, noisy neighbors , or SIBLINGS .
- Do not change your child's diaper at night ( unless he/she is poopy ). If your child gets soaking wet at night, or goes through occasional phase when he gets soaked, use extra-absorbent overnight diapers.
- You always want to put the baby down ,,drowsy but awake''. If you have trouble visualizing what ''drowsy but awake'' means, imagine a scale of one to ten, one being wide awake and ten being deep sleep. You want to put the baby down at about seven or eight. He should be quite sleepy but awake enough to know that he is going into the crib.
- I think that unusually alert, bright and aware children tend to have a little more trouble learning to sleep. These children often reach their physical milestones, like walking, on the early side, and they tend to have slightly disturbed sleep. In general I believe that achieving any milestones ( sitting up, clapping, waving etc.) disturb their sleep.
- Children need morning rituals just as much as they need bedtime rituals. Even the infants. Do a ''dramatic wake-up". Throw open the blinds, switch of the lights, sing some cheery good-morning songs, and start the day.
- If you anticipate needing the crib for a new baby, make the older child's transition to a bed at least two months before or four months after the birth to avoid the feelings of displacement. And if your toddler or preschooler is not ready to give up the crib, don't push it. Borrow a crib for the new baby, or buy a secondhand one until he is ready.
- And the most important thing! Always do what works the best for your family! Don't question yourself, don't let other people judge you and believe in yourself! You're doing the best you can!
The book that helped me multiple times when sleep training my kids : "Good Night, Sleep Tight." by Kim West.
The weekend is over and I somehow found myself in the kitchen searching for some easy cookie recipe. I woke up with a sweet tooth and quickly decided that I should use my sourdough starter and make something that will put anyone in a good mood. It was a great decision. The peanut butter cookies were perfect for after school snack and I even sent some to our neighbors to enjoy.
Here is the recipe.
San Francisco Sourdough Peanut Butter Beatnik Cookies
1 cup sourdough starter
1 cup peanut butter
1 cup butter
1 cup brown sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 cups flour, plus more if needed to make formidable dough
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon baking soda 1/2 teaspoon salt
Mix sourdough starter, peanut butter, butter, brown sugar, eggs and vanilla extract. Mix flour, baking powder, baking soda and salt together. Add to sourdough mixture, adding a little more flour if needed to form balls. Form into small balls, place on ungreased cookie sheet and press down with fork. Bake at 350 degrees F for 12 to 15 minutes.
PS: I wasn't able to upload my photos for some reason yesterday so I had to hold off on my post till today. But here it is! Enjoy and happy Fat Tuesday!
In last two weeks I had a chance to attend three different rallies in Chicago. I had days when I felt sad and helpless about our current political situation and being a part of those gatherings really helped me out. I know my daughter's were really happy to be a part of the 'Little Marchers' rally, which was organized by 'Just Like Me' group that connects multicultural families . With the enthusiasm they made signs spreading kindness, love and equality among other marchers. There are few other events in the horizon. I am looking forward to the 'Woman's March' on March 8th - International Woman's Day and the March of Science on Earth Day - April 22nd. We will be taking it to the streets as a family!
Two weeks ago I posted a sourdough starter recipe and since then I have made few bread loafs. For some reason I thought that baking the bread would be harder but it actually turn out pretty easy. And it is true when they say that quality of your starter really matters.
I researched for a different recipes and here is the one that works the best for me. My family loves the fresh bread. The only hard part about it is the wait ...
4 3/4 cup bread flour 2 tbsp. margarine softened
3 tbsp. white sugar 1 1/2 cup sourdough starter
2 1/2 tsp salt 1 large egg
1 (.25oz) package active dry yeast 1 tbsp. water
1 cup warm milk 1/4 cup chopped onion
- In a large bowl, combine 1 cup flour, sugar, salt, and dry yeast. Add milk and softened butter or margarine. Stir in starter. Mix in up to 3 3/4 cups flour gradually, you may need more depending on your climate.
- Turn dough out onto a floured surface, and knead for 8 to 10 minutes. Place in a greased bowl, turn once to oil surface, and cover. Allow to rise for 1 hour, or until doubled in volume.
- Punch down, and let rest 15 minutes. Shape into loaves. Place on a greased baking pan. Allow to rise for 1 hour, or until doubled.
- Brush egg wash over tops of loaves, and sprinkle with chopped onion.
- Bake at 375 degrees F (190 degrees C) for 30 minutes, or till done.
It is a last day of the month tomorrow and I must say that I am really working hard on my positive attitude and keeping my hands busy even though it has been gloomy a lot. Also political decisions of our president don't settle with me very well and I have days when I'm just purely upset... January can be hard. All of us step into a new year with a lots of goals but sometimes even silly weather can bring you down. So.... I have been baking bread, making crafts with my girls, sending postcards to our representatives in capitol, listening and searching for new music and learning how to macramé.
That's my way of keeping my mood up...
January 21st was epic in American history. Millions of people not just in the U.S but all over the world came together to rise their voices. But just like Womens March website says: 'Our march forward does not end here. Now is the time to get our friends, family, and community together and MAKE HISTORY'. If you visit this website https://www.womensmarch.com/100/ you'll get details what kid of actions you can take for the next hundred days. This will be a simple tasks I believe and they will not require too much of your time. I'm sure even your children can get involve and this would be wonderful lesson of democracy and activism for them.
I don't have much of an experience with making the sourdough bread. I love baking though so I figured that I should at least try and see what comes out of it. I did a lot of reading and decided that the best way to go about it is to start with a good sourdough starter.
Here is the recipe I used:
1 package active yeast ( .25 oz = 1.5 tsp )
2 cups warm water
2 cups all-purpose flour
- In large non-metallic bowl, mix together dry yeast, 2 cups warm water, and 2 cups all purpose flour and cover loosely.
- Leave in a warm place to ferment, 4 to 8 days. Depending on temperature and humidity of kitchen, times may vary. Place on cookie sheet in case of overflow. Check on occasionally.
- When mixture is bubbly and has a pleasant sour smell, it is ready to use. If mixture has a pink, orange, or any other strange color tinge to it, THROW IT OUT! and start over. Keep it in the refrigerator, covered until ready to bake.
- When you use starter to bake, always replace with equal amounts of a flour and water mixture with a pinch of sugar. So, if you remove 1 cup starter, replace with 1 cup water and 1 cup flour. Mix well and leave out on the counter until bubbly again, then refrigerate. If a clear to light brown liquid has accumulated on top, don't worry, this is an alcohol base liquid that occurs with fermentation. Just stir this back into the starter, the alcohol bakes off and that wonderful sourdough flavor remains! Sourdough starters improve with age, they used to be passed down generation to generation!
Since 1986, the United States has recognized Martin Luther King Jr.’s birthday as a federal holiday. Although King was born on January 15th, the country observes the holiday on the third Monday of the month. This year on January 16th, millions of people across the country will celebrate the day by committing to a day of service to carry on King’s vision of peace, unity, and justice. Many will also reflect on his challenge to humanity, “Life’s most persistent and urgent question is, ‘What are you doing for others?’” Parents, educators, and community leaders willseek out various resources to teach about the life of Martin Luther King Jr. There have been many books written about his life. King himself and members of his family wrote most of the books. As a parent I researched for some titles in our local library and here is the list of the books you could read with your kids on that special day:
- Adler, D. A. (1989). A Picture Book of Martin Luther King, Jr.. New York: Holiday House.
- Farris, C. K. (2003). My Brother Martin: A Sister Remembers Growing Up with the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.. New York: Simon & Schuster Books for Young Readers.
- Haskins, J. (1992). The Day Martin Luther King, Jr., Was Shot: A Photo History of the Civil Rights Movement. New York: Scholastic.
- King, M. L. K., Jr. (1997). I Have a Dream. New York: Scholastic.
- Levine, E. (1994). If You Lived at the Time of Martin Luther King. New York: Scholastic.
- Marzollo, J. (1993). Happy Birthday, Martin Luther King. New York: Scholastic.
- Mattern, J. (1992). Young Martin Luther King, Jr.: "I Have a Dream". Mahwah, NJ: Troll Associates.
- Parker, M. (1990). What Is Martin Luther King, Jr. Day?. Chicago, IL: Childrens Press.
- Pastan, A. (2004). Martin Luther King, Jr.. New York: DK Publishing.
- Ringgold, F. (1995). My Dream of Martin Luther King. New York: Crown.
When I was growing up I could remember my mom making a few different homemade remedies when my brother and I had a cold or suffer from any sort of sickness. Very frequently she used herbs, teas and juices from various fruits to help us out with a cough, sore throat and even constipation. As a mother of three little children, I often go to her recipes now and what I once thought was just silly polish traditions have now become truly helpful methods/cures(especially when your kids are too little to take anything from over the counter ). Below are a few of these old methods, I hope you find them as useful as I have through the years:
ONION SYRUP - EXCELLENT REMEDY FOR PERSISTENT, DRY COUGH
4 ONIONS, 1 GARLIC, 2 LEMONS, FEW SPOONS OF HONEY * (optional)
* Use with kids above 1 year old
Chop the onion and garlic very finely. Mix both vegetables together and place them in the jar. Squeeze the lemon juice from your lemons and add the honey *. Mix all the ingredients together and leave it over night. Take 2 tablespoons of syrup per day.
MILK WITH HONEY AND BUTTER- SORE THROAT/LOST VOICE
1 CUP OF MILK ( at least 2% fat ), 1 TSP HONEY, 1 TSP BUTTER, GARLIC (optional)
It is the best to drink it in the morning before breakfast or in the evening after supper. Heat up one cup of milk, add honey and butter. Stir it and drink it. This mixture not only coats up your sore throat but also clears up the bacteria.
SAGE AND CHAMOMILE TEA - SORE THROAT/ LOST VOICE
1 TSP SAGE, 1 TSP CHAMOMILE, CUP OF BOILING WATER
This actually doesn't taste very well and you DON'T suppose to drink it but just rinse your mouth and throat. Pour boiling water over the sage and chamomile (they can be tea bags). Keep it under the cover for 15 min. Rinse your mouth and throat with a warm solution.
LINDEN / ELDER TEA WITH A RASPBERRY JUICE- CHILLS AND FEVER
1 TBS LINDEN* , 1 TSP ELDER*, RASPBERRY JUICE, SLICE OF LEMON
*tea bags are ok to use as well
Pour boiling water over the linden and elder. Add some raspberry juice and the slice of lemon. Cover for 15 min. and drink it warm. This tea works like an aspirin: it reduces the fever, pain and fatigue. The best is to drink it in the evening, right before bed time. It is recommended to rest after drinking it.
One way to think about cupping is that it is the inverse of massage. Rather than applying pressure to muscles, the suction uses pressure to pull skin, tissue and muscles upward.
Cupping was developed thousands of years ago and though the techniques have modernized, the original philosophy remains the same.
Cupping involves placing glass, bamboo or plastic jars on the skin and creating a vacuum by suctioning out the air. The underlying tissue is raised, or sucked, partway into the cup. The purpose of cupping is to enhance circulation, help relieve pain, remove "heat" and pull out the toxins that linger in your body's tissues. You usually will feel a tight sensation in the area of the cup. Often, this sensation is relaxing and soothing. Depending on your comfort and your practitioner's assessment of the problem, cups may be moved around or left in place. They may remain on your body briefly or for longer amounts of time. Each treatment is unique to you on that particular day. One very common area to be cupped is the back, although cups work well on other areas, too — particularly on fleshy sections of the body.
My grandma Melania was the only person in my family who knew how to use that technique, later on my aunt Ela. I remember my grandma placing cups on my back when I had a bed cough and it would always help to go away. The only downside was staying in bed for a day or two. It was extremely hard for a kid. I learnt cupping from my aunt. When visiting Poland I brought myself a kit and I used it few times on my own kids. Even when they were very little . And... I swear by it! It is a great way to stronger your body but also eliminate persistent cough / bad cold.
Chicago has been brutally cold last few days and with that on my mind I gave my children idea of making the birdseed ornaments. We figured that poor birds can use some help during this winter months... Also, I am not the biggest fan of giving away candy for Valentine's Day and thought that if I come up with a good recipe within the time we could make enough heart shaped birdseed ornaments and give them to friends at school and neighbors on that special day. My daughters loved the idea! With a nice ribbon and the tag even the birds will enjoy the Valentine's Day!
Here's what you'll need:
large bowl, 2 cups birdseed, 2 packages unflavored gelatin, heart shape cookie cutters or heart shape baking pan, parchment paper, straws ( cut into 3 or 4 inch sections ), twine or ribbon for hanging
Follow package instructions for mixing the gelatin. Allow to cool slightly, about 20 minutes. Meanwhile, set out the cookie cutters on parchment covered tray. Mix the birdseed into the gelatin until thoroughly coated. Pack the birdseed mixture into the cookie cutters as tightly as possible. Poke the straws into the birdseed and leave them in ( to make a hole for stringing the ribbon through ). Set aside in a cool dry space at least six hours or over night. Very carefully push the hardened ornament out of the cookie cutter and remove the straw. Tie with ribbon or twine and hang outside . Enjoy the bird watching !!
It seems like I skipped entire season (* eye roll). And for notes sake it was a great one!! Autumn in Chicago was beautiful. We were lucky enough to enjoy warm weather till the end of November. Our annual Halloween parade was fun and fortunately both of the girls wanted to look like zombie princess' which wasn't difficult to make. The rest of the family went with the flow...even the baby. The Cubs won the world series and a few days after that, Donald Trump became next president. I took it really hard... Around Thanksgiving we finished our kitchen project and around the same time everyone in the house got pretty sick. We still enjoyed the holiday and the down time at home. December is usually full of celebrations. My birthday came and went, Nella turned 4 and my husband and I celebrated 11 years of marriage. Week by week got busier with baking endless numbers of cookies for friends and teachers . I managed to make some salt dough ornaments and dried oranges for garlands. I even donated some to the Christmas bazaar at the girl's school. We had a very nice, Polish Christmas Eve dinner with friends and a quiet Christmas Day at home. Throughout the whole season we watched all the classic Christmas movies and listened to a lot of good music. As of now we're enjoying our winter break. We're visiting museums and parks. Hanging out with different friends and enjoying pajama days at home. It is all good!
As the New Year approaches I reflect on 2016... My 2016... I'm staying away from the political situation in our country, and the world in general because...it was/is heartbreaking for me. Even the number of great celebrities that passed away this year seems bigger then usual... But my little bubble, my everyday life with three children and a hard working husband stays constant. It gets hard, it gets crazy and sometimes difficult. It's also tiring because I'm doing it by myself a lot but I wouldn't change it for anything else in the world. I am so privilege to be staying at home with my kids. It has been a little over a year now and I am so happy to be the one who watches them grow and helps them develop their personalities.
In the future, when going back to this year I want them to remember 2016 as the first year when we all got to learn how to be a family of five .
We're having a few friends coming over for a New Year's Eve celebration. There will be a bong fire in our back yard with some Polish sausages and s'mores. Maybe some sparklers, fireworks and champagne... I'm not sure if we will be able to stay till midnight to make a toast because of all the little ones but I am definitely hoping for some dancing. With the help of my daughters I put together this New Year's Eve playlist . Give it a listen or even shake it off a little !! Happy New Year !!
Today thousand sof women in Poland have gone on strike in protest against proposals for a total ban on abortions. It is a cruel, anti-woman law that would criminalize any termination of pregnancy. They marched through the streets wearing black as a sign of mourning for their reproductive rights.
If the new law goes through, Poland would be one of two other European countries- next to Malta and the Vatican- with a very restrictive abortion laws.
Imagine the situation were there is a patient who develops the pre-eclampsia in 32nd week of her pregnancy. The doctor will have to let her and her child die because whoever causes the death of the unborn child is punishable by imprisonment up to three years. Women found to have had abortions would be punished with a five -year prison term.... That also means that women who have a miscarriage will be investigated, on suspicion of having had the pregnancy terminated deliberately. At early stages of pregnancy, miscarriages and abortions have indistinguishable symptoms.
Abortion is already mostly banned in Poland but this time around the Polish government, Church and pro-life organizations started to plan for women. I truly believe that women should have a right to make independent, conscious decisions regarding their own body. It is just sad that they have to take it to the streets to be heard and respected!
Almost exactly a year ago I had an morning appointment to see my midwife. I was 39 weeks pregnant and expecting a baby boy any day. I had a few mild Braxton hicks here and there but nothing that would take me to the hospital. I treated the day like any other. In my agenda I had a visit to my midwife and shopping at Trader Joe's. At my midwife's visit I found out that the baby would probably show up later in the evening or the day after- I was almost 3 cm dilated. I called my husband, shared the news with him and asked if he could pick up the girls from summer camp and have his parents come out because we will probably go to the hospital in the evening. When driving to Trader Joe's I was thinking how wonderful it will be to meet my son and get to hold him in my arms ...SO SOON!! In the store things took a sudden turn. My contractions were getting stronger and becoming more frequent. My husband and the girls got home almost at the same time as I arrived. When they got home they found the groceries right in the middle of the living room and me getting my hospital bag and slowly walking through the contractions. Things were definitely progressing quicker than I thought. Right away we called our emergency contact to stay with the girls but that didn't worked out either. My water broke right then in the middle of dining room. That had never happened with either of my daughters. My kids were watching me in shock and amaze, just stunned by what was happening. My husband gathered all my things, loaded everyone into the car and we took off to the hospital.
We were heading downtown at 1 pm.... There was SO much traffic and I kept thinking how in the world are we going to make it to the hospital on time ? The baby was coming.... I was literally in one of those movie scenes when you're about to deliver your kid in the car!! My oldest daughter was crying in the back and covering her ears anytime I had a contraction. My younger one just kept repeating how I peed on the floor at home. Things were going pretty crazy!! My husband decided to drive on the emergency shoulder! We made it to the ER , they helped me out to the wheelchair and got me undress while pushing me through the halls into the triage. I could barely hold the baby inside of my body.... I remember nurses keep telling me to breathe a little longer so the OB doctor could be in the room with me. As soon as he got into the door I pushed my son ... It took a one push!! He was perfect !! Very calm and quiet... Nurses kept reassuring me that it's because he came so quick. He was in shock himself!
My husband missed the delivery... He was with the girls parking the car.... He didn't have a chance to cut the umbilical cord and they all came to the room when I was holding Milo in my arms. My midwife appointment was at 11 am. Milo was born at 1:50 pm on Labor Day Weekend! The delivery department was talking about it for days...
It has been a year since Milo has join us. Over the last week I have been little emotional and kept thinking about how our life changed within that one year! Sometimes days feel SO long but years seem SO short! Even when dropping off Pola and Nella to school I keep going back to the days when he was just a few days old . Tears are coming up to my eyes when I think how he is changing into toddler. He is learning how to take steps, is climbing and talking more with each day. I'm looking forward to the changes but at the same time I'm clinging to him as a baby. I love our breastfeeding time but I am also thinking how eventually he needs to wean off of my breast.... Change is good but change is also hard! And knowing that it is possibly my last child makes things bittersweet!
Happy 1st Birthday my sweet Milo!!